My name is Tammy. I’m 51 years old, married, and have 3 grown children who live ALL over…Florida, Utah, & Japan. I’ve been overweight most of my life, and obese for a lot of it. I kept a good body shape in high school, but as soon as I got pregnant for the first time when I was 20 years old, I just let myself go. It wasn’t intentional to gain so much weight (fat), I guess I didn’t realize that it wouldn’t just “fall off” after the baby was born.
I’ve tried many many diets over the years, and even was hypnotized, but nothing ever worked long-term. I would lose some weight, then get tired of being “on a diet” and give up, only to gain the weight back, plus some. It has taken me many years to finally realize that I am addicted to food, and that NO diet is going to work for me. The only way I’m ever going to get this weight off is by making a true lifestyle change. I have to dedicate my life to feeding my body the foods that it actually craves, I just never knew that’s what my body needed and wanted.
When I eat healthy now, I feel so good, inside and out. That’s not to say that I don’t ever have times that I don’t eat so healthy. They are just getting fewer and farther between. It’s getting easier to say no to the things I should say no to. I’m still on the fence about a “cheat day” or “cheat meal.” I always believed that any little diversion would derail me, and it was always so hard to get back on track. Lately though, I have been doing better with that. It’s nice to look forward to a treat, knowing that that would be the limit…no more.
I’ve also had to come to a place where exercise is just part of my life. I feel bad when I miss a workout, but it still happens sometimes. There are some days when I am just so tired after driving a truck all day, and I let myself talk me out of working out. I’m hoping with time, I will get better control of both of these areas.
My husband and I started team driving a truck in January of 2006, and took a year off July 2011 – July 2012. We’ve just recently gotten back to driving. I admit I did gain weight from driving earlier because I didn’t make good food choices or make the time to exercise. I’m trying to do both of those things now. I want to live a more productive life from being healthy and hopefully a longer life too. I want to be able to play with my future grand kids. I want to still be able to hike in the forest with my husband and son. The last time we went hiking really kicked my butt. It was a real wake-up call as to how out-of-shape I had become.
As of June 2012, I weighed 237 lbs, my heaviest ever. I now weigh 209.2 lbs, meaning I have lost just about 28 lbs. I feel a lot better about myself, but know I still have a long way to go. I set a goal for myself to lose 100 lbs. That would put me at 137 lbs. I honestly don’t know if I will be happy at that goal or not, as it’s been so long since I’ve been anywhere near that weight. And while I can tell I’ve lost weight by the way my clothes fit and all, I can’t imagine that I am 1/4 of the way to my goal. I feel like I have so much more to lose than that. Only time will tell. But I do know this… I AM going to lose weight and keep it off for good. Because I’m never going off this “diet”…this is my lifestyle now.
I hope you’ll enjoy following along with me on my journey towards becoming a healthy truck driver. Through this blog, I’ll be documenting my experience as I try to eat healthy and get daily workouts in.